Solstice Reflections

With a 'poorly' girl at home today, its led me to thinking a bit about 'stuff'.. Time for me to re-assess certain things that were once important to me and to see if I'm ready to move forward with others. Solstice,standstill, time for reflection. As the sun starts to dip on the horizon and the days get shorter I'm taking note of the signs and signals that are bringing me to this place. Honouring the light of the world and the light within. Time to emerge from the chrysalis. I realised over the past few years that I was holding myself back from fully realising everything in my life. Using excuses and other people as both a crutch for positive and negative experiences. I am who I am. These past few years have revealed so much to me and have allowed me the space and time to consider my options and to work toward something more tangible. I have changed my life's path, changed my career and changed so much and as a result have grown exponentially. Realising this has been a personal revelation. I am thoroughly enjoying my life right now am so pleased that I have remarkable people in it, all of whom I love dearly (yeah, that means you lot out there), have two amazing daughters who reflect to me every day who I am. I have a wonderful man in my life who shows me love through the things that he does (he stopped the car to get my crochet out of the boot when we were travelling.. it was such a sweet gesture and had a great impact on me). I am so fortunate in so many ways. I'm also beginning to feel the effects of the vitamin D (which is probably a lot to do with it). You see, when you're in darkness its difficult to see the light, when you are in darkness and dullness your inner light won't function, my little blue pills are liquid light in a capsule.This internalised process of metabolising the light and raising my internal levels and being able to sit in the sun this past weekend has been vital to my sense of who I am.
I know that sitting in the sun, in a lovely part of the world might not seem like much, but for me, it is. A sense of belonging and despite differences of opinion, knowing that my opinion is considered, whether its right or not, is again important to me, knowing that I have been heard. I am grateful that I am open to hearing the opinions of others too and that still respecting each other is a vital part of that personal growth. I am so grateful to all those who were there and made the experience possible.

I have struggled with a few things the past few years, whether it be my weight, my health, relationships, parenting and so much besides. However, I know that if I at least meet the world halfway I am rewarded thousandfold.

So, as I open up to the inner and outer light of the world, I am thankful that I have so many wonderful things in my life. Yes, they could be snatched away from me in a second, but I would rather not worry about that. I would much rather bask in the sunlight, ever hopeful that whatever challenges and changes that life brings will be coped with and bared with a smile.
I have realised that I have potential. I can do things I didn't think I could and I can rise to all challenges set before me. Its not whether I complete something or not, but the actual doing of the thing which is important.

Thank you for reading.